“I discovered, though, that once having given a pig an enema there is no turning back, no chance of resuming one of life’s more stereotyped roles.” — E. B. White, “Death of a Pig,” The Atlantic (January 1948)
“The world tends to trap you in the role you play and it is always extremely hard to maintain a watchful, mocking distance between oneself as one appears to be and oneself as one actually is.” — James Baldwin, “The Black Boy Looks at the White Boy,” Esquire (May 1961)
“The roles that we construct are constructed because we feel that they will help us to survive and also, of course, because they fulfill something in our personalities; and one does not, therefore, cease playing a role simply because one has begun to understand it.” — James Baldwin, “The Black Boy Looks at the White Boy,” Esquire (May 1961)
I realized that I was not living up to his image of me. I am his big brother and I play the role. Another lesson on the path of letting go of what I am (“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.” — 老子).